I knew this round of the IUI wasn't going to work. I resigned myself to the fact. I told my husband and BFF that I knew it wasn't going to work. I started making plans for IVF in the future. In my head I knew it wasn't going to work. Mentally I had accepted. Someone forgot to tell my heart though. My cycle started today and I was devastated. It really doesn't get easier.
But I had myself a good cry and I'll be taking January and February off. I'll be ready to begin IVF in March.